I've had a hard time lately, and I need to come clean. I have had to rethink well-paying jobs for fear of a pre-hire drug screen. I need to find one more than ever now, since thanks to some fucking bitch with an ingrown hair in her ass, her displeasure with how my mom just got her put into forced resignation, aka quit or be fired. My mom has worked with special needs kids at local elementary schools for at least 7 years now, I think she can handle her fucking job. Also, the last month I have suffered from the worst insomnia of my life. Because of it, I have been using oxycodone/percocet and/or as of late, vicodin, to help knock me out. I have gotten to the point where I am in the first stages of addiction. I have an addictive personality to pills, having battled a minor addiction to oxycontin (despite stopping a week early) followed by an addiction to percocet strong enough to cause withdrawals, both of which while recovering from my spinal fusion surgery 2.5 years ago. So I have decided I need to get off drugs. I am starting to ween myself off the vic, but its going to be a hard battle for me. Getting off cannibus won't be as hard, nor will drinking, the hardest part will be saving money instead of contributing for a bag or bottle. It's bad enough some of it goes to a pack of cigarettes, which I hope I can give another try quitting after all of this is behind me. If it proves too much and I can't find a good enough job, I have started looking into a possible rehab stay. I know I can count on my truest friends for support, but honestly I need all the help I can get. So leave messages, comments, give me a call, anything will be greatly appreciated.
Thanx!

~m@t80!